Angel_of_Hopes

Things are better, I guess...

2007-02-20T21:04:33Z

   I won't be going to the U.S. this year. I've tried so hard, but for no real use. I will be going next year though. My parents have promised to give me a helping hand with the money now. That's nice :)
   I'm really sad I won't be going this year, but at least I will be an exchange student. So my dream will come true! I just have to wait a little longer...

   I guess things are better now, but I'm still a bit sad. And I don't even know why...

   A good things is that I've gotten VERY good response on my writing! :) The novel I'm currently writing on has potential to be published. Only if I write it good enough of course. I've gotten very good reviews on some parts of the novel. That's cheering me up :o)
   I'm still only at the beginning, but ideas just come flooding at the moment. I'm not really good at finishing my novels, but I hope I can finish this one. The good responses are definitely helping. I'm much more encouraged to write now.
   I also hope to write a fantasy novel one day. I just have a really hard time getting enough inspiration for it...

I'm going to write now :o)

Once again I've no idea what's going to happen :(

2007-02-07T09:37:30Z

Hello.

Things are better between me and my parents, and my mum is starting to like my idea of my going to the U.S as an exchange student. BUT I still need the last money, and I had to ask the bank for a loan. Which is very hard to get, since I'm not 18. And I need a reply very soon, because I need to hurry now. I have to apply soon, if I want to go this year.
I have no idea if the bank wants to loan me the money or not. So I'm very nervous, and I hope to get the reply today. My last hope is in the hands of the bank...

I feel unwanted...

2007-02-04T20:13:18Z

Hi

I really do. It's like everyone hates me right now. Well, at least it feels my parents do :( No matter what I do or say, it's wrong. My mum and I have been fighting all day, but nothing new there. But now I asked my dad to come to a meeting with me. The one about being and exchange student, and then he say it's a bad day because he need to pack to our skiing holiday. It's not until Saturday! And the meeting is on Thursday. He also said I could just go by myself. It's far away from my town. Then I got mad and said, that he had promised it and that it meant a lot to me. He gets angry and said that I shouldn't talk like that to him. No matter what I say, he say that.
I really thought I could count on my dad with all days. But it seems like he and my mum is against me now. What did I do?!! Why don't you care at all? It's my dream to go, so yes, I'm hurt if you don't want to help me or at least support me a little.
I really don't know if can go anymore. I need a little more money, and I don't think any of them will help me with the little solution I've been thinking of. I'm on verge to tears now. I just don't understand why they're acting like that! They both thought it would be a good idea in the beginning. Then my mum backed out, and she began to whine to my dad. Even though they're divorced, she has him wrapped around her little finger. He cares a lot more about her than me. I just don't know why... I'm so confused. WHY?! WHAT DID I DO TO YOU TWO?!!
I just hate standing here where I don't know if I'll go or not. I really want to know...

It's been a very boring weekend... I can't wait for something to happen tomorrow. I have a job interview.

I hate my mom...

2007-02-03T19:57:29Z

Hi!

I really do right now! I REALLY want to be an exchange student and go to the U.S. for a year, but I've just found out that this year is my last possibility to go. I've gotten almost all the money. I only need the extra money that I get monthly to pay for shampoo, deodorant etc. That's a lot! And my mom just doesn't want to support me. Because if I leave, then she'll loose some money and would have to change things. So she doesn't want me to go. She won't even drive to a meeting about this. I've had so many fights about this. I just don't get her... But I promise I'll go, one way or another!

Anyway, it's been a relaxing day. I've just finished my last homework. We get report cards soon, so I have to work a little extra at the moment. I've was out of school a couple of weeks a little while ago, because I thought I wanted to quit. I wanted to work instead, but in the end I choose to go back to school.

I hope I can move in with my dad and his girlfriend soon. I just can't stand my mom right now. We fight all the time. And not only about going to the U.S. I'm sick and tired of our fighting...

First day

2007-02-02T21:25:03Z

Well, this is my first day here, so I'm looking for friends and communinties. I've heard a lot about LJ, so now I finally decided to try it...

Short entry, I know. I just want to look around today.